Lately I’ve been having this unquenchable desire to read…like everything…all the time. Before just now I couldn’t even explain why. When I’m sitting idle I just wanna get my hands on an article or my Nook. What’s funny is that this is novel behavior for me. I mean, I liked to read here and there back in the day, but if you could give me the same info on a tv screen, there’s no question on what I’d choose. I mean it was easier, so why not take that route? I used to feel like I had to read enough in school so when I was out of class or done studying, reading was the last thing on my mind. I mean I had a desire to read, but instead of doing so I used to replace action with excuses..you know, being too tired and so on.

*insert flashback* when I was a little girl I remember my Mother telling me stories of Solomon in the Bible. I wanted to be wise like him so I thought I’d pray to God, also like him, and ask for it too. Then somehow I’d magically wake up and, voila, be wise lol. So years passed, and I still didn’t feel smart. Well, I felt smart but not like miraculously , God-did-it smart lol. So I thought about it more recently and prayed again. I figured I had missed God’s answer.. or that maybe I didn’t have enough faith for it to come to pass. 

In stranger and more recent news, in my summer class I’ve been feeling like I comprehend things better. Business articles I’m reading I now understand a bit easier. (I’m going somewhere I promise.) It was today that words stated by my pastor hit me. You have to pray to God and ask for help, but it is also up to you to do your part. (He phrased it a lot more eloquently than me though.) Here I had been praying, hoping that God would snap His fingers, and somehow I’d magically be smarter; however, I was not contributing to the cause. Now I’m sure that if He wanted, God could do that, but why should He if I’m not taking any initiative? I’m learning that we can’t just sit around and expect God to do everything for us, while we sit idle. You can’t have a “passive approach to an active expectation”, as I read earlier. I prayed for wisdom, and I believe He placed that desire to read/learn (that I was mentioning earlier) within me. That desire is elevating me during my journey.

I came across a few quotes today that I hope inspire others, as they have inspired me:)

“Transformation isn’t a future event; it’s the present activity that stimulates what’s to come.”

“Change is not the goal, it’s the consistent process that leads to your desire.”

“If you change nothing, nothing will change.”

“Progress is impossible without change, and those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything.”